Just wanting to vent for a minute and express my frustration...
It amazes me how you are useless to some people when you don't have children and they do. We've lost a few friendships because we aren't part of the "club". It breaks my heart and makes me so sad. I feel rejected and alone. And it amazes me how some people are so blind. I'm not saying the world has to stop because we don't have children...not at all. Just wish people were a little more sensitive.
Or maybe I need to STOP being so sensitive...
Maybe I need to stop feeling sorry for myself.
Saturday, April 13, 2013
Sunday, February 17, 2013
A tough month...
Again, it's been a while since I've updated the blog. It's been a really busy couple of months but I know that's no excuse :)
Our Aunt Valerie passed away in January. Not surprisingly, it has been a difficult loss for our family. It has been an extremely difficult time for me. This is the first big loss in my life since I was 5 when my Papaw King passed away (which I don't really remember). My uncle Lee passed away 4 or 5 years ago, but unfortunately, we weren't as close as me and Valerie were. And my relationship with Valerie had changed a lot in the last couple of years, and as most people would probably have to say, it had changed most dramatically when we found out she had cirrhosis of the liver. But Valerie never let that bring her down. She was always so positive about the diagnosis and I have no doubt the diagnosis brought her closer to the Lord. Valerie died exactly two weeks from when she found out she had made the liver transplant list. And though my original thoughts were "This is not fair. She had tried so hard and come so far" I have come to realize that all that hard work was not in vain. She now has a new body and is getting to sit at the feet of her heavenly Father. And if I wasn't 100%sure about her salvation, God gave me peace the Sunday after she died when at church, the special music was a song about how there is no more pain and suffering for those that get to be in Heaven. It was so comforting to know that that Sunday, God was letting my family know that His daughter Valerie was with Him and was suffering no more. Praise God that I was able to know my Aunt Valerie and I hope that I can be as good of an Aunt as she was and be a Godly example to my nieces. And although our child(ren) will never get to meet and know Valerie, they will get to hear about the incredible person she was and the impact that she had on my life and all those who came in contact with her.
So here we are today, February 17th and we celebrated the birth of my sweet little niece Margaret Caroline May (Maggie). I can't believe it has already been 3 years since she was born. Time goes by so fast and her birthday celebration along with the death of our Aunt are both bitter sweet reminders of how precious time is and how we need to treasure each moment we have with those we love and how we need to use each day to help bring others to know Christ and His amazing love. I also think about the fact that if everything had happened the way WE had planned it, Doug and I would have a 3 year old as well. (We tried to get pregnant around the same time my sister did over three years ago.) But praise God that His plan is much better and bigger than ours. We were in no way where we needed to be in our marriage but most importantly, spiritually. Though I get discouraged sometimes that we don't have a child, I just remind myself that maybe God's still working on us before He blesses us with a child(ren)...it's just like that little song you learn as a child "God's still workin on me...to make me what I ought to be...." :)
Please continue to pray for us as we continue to wait, wait, wait... Please pray for patience, pray for Bethany Christian Services and our adoption counselor, pray for the birth mother counselor that she will be able to work with these mothers to make the best decision for their life, and most importantly, pray the God can continue to work in us and help better us so that we can be the best parents we can be someday to our child(ren). Thanks to those who are still hanging in there with us and continuing to read our blog :) You truly have NO idea how much it means to have the support of loved ones and even complete strangers! So excited to know how well our child is already loved :)
Hope you have a wonderful week. AND if anyone finds out of a pregnant mother who is considering adoption and more importantly, considering abortion, please refer her to Bethany Christian Services where she can receive free counseling to help her decide what is best for her and her baby.
Our Aunt Valerie passed away in January. Not surprisingly, it has been a difficult loss for our family. It has been an extremely difficult time for me. This is the first big loss in my life since I was 5 when my Papaw King passed away (which I don't really remember). My uncle Lee passed away 4 or 5 years ago, but unfortunately, we weren't as close as me and Valerie were. And my relationship with Valerie had changed a lot in the last couple of years, and as most people would probably have to say, it had changed most dramatically when we found out she had cirrhosis of the liver. But Valerie never let that bring her down. She was always so positive about the diagnosis and I have no doubt the diagnosis brought her closer to the Lord. Valerie died exactly two weeks from when she found out she had made the liver transplant list. And though my original thoughts were "This is not fair. She had tried so hard and come so far" I have come to realize that all that hard work was not in vain. She now has a new body and is getting to sit at the feet of her heavenly Father. And if I wasn't 100%sure about her salvation, God gave me peace the Sunday after she died when at church, the special music was a song about how there is no more pain and suffering for those that get to be in Heaven. It was so comforting to know that that Sunday, God was letting my family know that His daughter Valerie was with Him and was suffering no more. Praise God that I was able to know my Aunt Valerie and I hope that I can be as good of an Aunt as she was and be a Godly example to my nieces. And although our child(ren) will never get to meet and know Valerie, they will get to hear about the incredible person she was and the impact that she had on my life and all those who came in contact with her.
So here we are today, February 17th and we celebrated the birth of my sweet little niece Margaret Caroline May (Maggie). I can't believe it has already been 3 years since she was born. Time goes by so fast and her birthday celebration along with the death of our Aunt are both bitter sweet reminders of how precious time is and how we need to treasure each moment we have with those we love and how we need to use each day to help bring others to know Christ and His amazing love. I also think about the fact that if everything had happened the way WE had planned it, Doug and I would have a 3 year old as well. (We tried to get pregnant around the same time my sister did over three years ago.) But praise God that His plan is much better and bigger than ours. We were in no way where we needed to be in our marriage but most importantly, spiritually. Though I get discouraged sometimes that we don't have a child, I just remind myself that maybe God's still working on us before He blesses us with a child(ren)...it's just like that little song you learn as a child "God's still workin on me...to make me what I ought to be...." :)
Please continue to pray for us as we continue to wait, wait, wait... Please pray for patience, pray for Bethany Christian Services and our adoption counselor, pray for the birth mother counselor that she will be able to work with these mothers to make the best decision for their life, and most importantly, pray the God can continue to work in us and help better us so that we can be the best parents we can be someday to our child(ren). Thanks to those who are still hanging in there with us and continuing to read our blog :) You truly have NO idea how much it means to have the support of loved ones and even complete strangers! So excited to know how well our child is already loved :)
Hope you have a wonderful week. AND if anyone finds out of a pregnant mother who is considering adoption and more importantly, considering abortion, please refer her to Bethany Christian Services where she can receive free counseling to help her decide what is best for her and her baby.
Thursday, January 3, 2013
A New Year, A Fresh Start
It's been a while since I've written a post on here and for multiple reasons. (1) just haven't had the time, and (2) there isn't much to update.
We had a wonderful Christmas. I so enjoyed the time we got to spend with our family. And we have an awesome family. I always get so depressed after Christmas because I know it will be another year before we get to experience those kind of special feelings again. Christmas is just such a magical time of year...thinking about the birth of our Savior and what it was like back then, what it was like for Mary, and the impact his birth made on our world. Along with that comes the comfort of being with all of our loved ones and knowing that even though we exchange gifts that those really aren't important and that all of us really do just enjoy the time together. Getting to reminisce and here all the funny stories from Aunt Valerie, or stories about my brother and sister, or the ridiculous things my dad has done and still does :) And who could forget the delicious food?!??!! Eating all that food and not caring about how many calories your consuming or it's nutrition value...just enjoying trying all the different foods that so many loved ones took the time to make. It is just a magical and truly a gift from the Lord.
And all this goodness and happiness somehow still leaves a whole in my heart. I'm sure it comes as no surprise that Christmas and New Years is the hardest time for Doug and I. I want to be sharing all these incredible memories with my child(ren). I want to be making Christmas memories with my little girl or baby boy.
But, now it's a new year...a new beginning...a new start. We will continue on with the waiting process, praying and hoping that this is the year we are blessed with gift from God. We have made the decision to continue on with the process with Bethany for one more year and as we continue to wait we will be praying and trying to discern His word and His will for us. If God calls us to pursue another avenue, then we need to obey so we will see what this new year holds.
I hope that everyone had a great Christmas and I hope that 2013 brings many blessings to each of you!
P.S. If you are needing a good book recommendation try "Discerning the Voice of God" by Priscilla Shirer. Very good book to learn how to hear God's voice and to be reminded that even though we don't have the fortune of having our Savior here on earth with us, we still have the Holy Spirit who can live within us and help us to really know God and experience His love.
We had a wonderful Christmas. I so enjoyed the time we got to spend with our family. And we have an awesome family. I always get so depressed after Christmas because I know it will be another year before we get to experience those kind of special feelings again. Christmas is just such a magical time of year...thinking about the birth of our Savior and what it was like back then, what it was like for Mary, and the impact his birth made on our world. Along with that comes the comfort of being with all of our loved ones and knowing that even though we exchange gifts that those really aren't important and that all of us really do just enjoy the time together. Getting to reminisce and here all the funny stories from Aunt Valerie, or stories about my brother and sister, or the ridiculous things my dad has done and still does :) And who could forget the delicious food?!??!! Eating all that food and not caring about how many calories your consuming or it's nutrition value...just enjoying trying all the different foods that so many loved ones took the time to make. It is just a magical and truly a gift from the Lord.
And all this goodness and happiness somehow still leaves a whole in my heart. I'm sure it comes as no surprise that Christmas and New Years is the hardest time for Doug and I. I want to be sharing all these incredible memories with my child(ren). I want to be making Christmas memories with my little girl or baby boy.
But, now it's a new year...a new beginning...a new start. We will continue on with the waiting process, praying and hoping that this is the year we are blessed with gift from God. We have made the decision to continue on with the process with Bethany for one more year and as we continue to wait we will be praying and trying to discern His word and His will for us. If God calls us to pursue another avenue, then we need to obey so we will see what this new year holds.
I hope that everyone had a great Christmas and I hope that 2013 brings many blessings to each of you!
P.S. If you are needing a good book recommendation try "Discerning the Voice of God" by Priscilla Shirer. Very good book to learn how to hear God's voice and to be reminded that even though we don't have the fortune of having our Savior here on earth with us, we still have the Holy Spirit who can live within us and help us to really know God and experience His love.
Monday, October 1, 2012
Homestudy Update Complete and a Few Other Thoughts
I'm a little behind but we completed our homestudy update a few weeks ago! I know everyone seems to think we've been waiting FOREVER to be matched, but for us, this past year has flown by it seems.
I realize that our lives will change soon enough, so I am trying to treasure the moments and continue to make memories with Doug. I am so looking forward to becoming a mother some day, but I never want to lose sight of the most important relationship that God has given me here on this earth. Mine and Doug's relationship continues to grow and improve and we owe all of that to our heavenly Father. The way that He has worked in our lives over the past two years, especially just within the last 6 months, has been amazing to watch. I grow more and more in love with Doug each day and watching him grow into a stronger Christian is just more evident of God's plan. I can't wait to see what a wonderful father he will become. And I can't wait to share God's amazing love and grace with our precious child.
Ok, I may have gotten a little more mushy than I should have for this post ;-) I just love sharing all that the Lord is doing in my life. Please continue to pray for us as we patiently and sometimes not so patiently wait for our child. And please pray for our birthmother. I know there is a birthmother out there that needs us or will need us soon and I just pray that we find each other. I pray that God give her the strength and wisdom to make whatever decision is best for her and the baby.
I hope everyone has a great week! So glad fall is finally here!
I realize that our lives will change soon enough, so I am trying to treasure the moments and continue to make memories with Doug. I am so looking forward to becoming a mother some day, but I never want to lose sight of the most important relationship that God has given me here on this earth. Mine and Doug's relationship continues to grow and improve and we owe all of that to our heavenly Father. The way that He has worked in our lives over the past two years, especially just within the last 6 months, has been amazing to watch. I grow more and more in love with Doug each day and watching him grow into a stronger Christian is just more evident of God's plan. I can't wait to see what a wonderful father he will become. And I can't wait to share God's amazing love and grace with our precious child.
Ok, I may have gotten a little more mushy than I should have for this post ;-) I just love sharing all that the Lord is doing in my life. Please continue to pray for us as we patiently and sometimes not so patiently wait for our child. And please pray for our birthmother. I know there is a birthmother out there that needs us or will need us soon and I just pray that we find each other. I pray that God give her the strength and wisdom to make whatever decision is best for her and the baby.
I hope everyone has a great week! So glad fall is finally here!
Thursday, August 30, 2012
Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!
I just wanted to say thank you soooo much for those that are using our link to shop on Amazon. I don't know who all has bought (it just shows what was bought, now who the buyer is) but we really appreciate it. You are helping us more than you know!
Just a reminder, if you click on the Amazon link on this page, you can shop on Amazon just like you normally would, but a portion of the proceeds goes into our adoption fund!
Just a reminder, if you click on the Amazon link on this page, you can shop on Amazon just like you normally would, but a portion of the proceeds goes into our adoption fund!
Monday, August 20, 2012
Save the Adoption Tax Credit!
Save the Adoption Tax Credit. Not for us, but for other families going through the adoption process!
http://adoptiontaxcredit.org/advocate/
http://adoptiontaxcredit.org/advocate/
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